Episode 10: Face Your Fear

Join Lydia for a discussion on facing your fears and embracing your power. At 14:11, go deep into a guided meditation taking you into connection with your soul, facing your fears, and stepping into your power. 

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You hear a knock at your front door and wonder who it is. You get up from your seat and walk to the door only to open it and see no one. You look up and down the street and see no signs of anyone. So you look down. A beautifully gilded envelope is on your door's threshold. What is this? You think, picking up the envelope. You open it up, pulling out an ornate invitation and read. You are cordially invited to meet me at the intersection of mystical and mundane today at 11 o'clock sharp. Please bring your sense of curiosity and a warm jacket, but leave your preconceived notions and doubts at home. Sincerely, your soul. Welcome to my podcast, and thank you for joining me at the intersection of mystical and mundane. I am your host, Lydia Lazara, founder of Questions Authority Coaching. And twice a month I share episodes that range from personal insights and even sometimes guided meditations to short stories or parables. Everything I share is meant to help bring you closer to the mystical so that you can develop a deep connection to your soul and the divine in your everyday mundane life. So answer yes to your soul's invitation and meet me at the intersection of mystical and mundane, where coincidences become synchronicities, where mistakes become gifts of insight, and where your heart connects deeply with your soul and you begin to flow with the universe. What would life look like if you no longer had the limiting beliefs, the old stuck patterns that hold you in smallness? What would life look like if you actually stepped into your power? If nothing and no one was holding you back from your true potential and purpose? These are questions that I have asked myself over the years as I've been doing this work, and that I'm asking myself again as I am realizing and confronting the underlying patterns and limiting beliefs and excuses that I'm holding, keeping me back from things that I know I am called to do. But I conveniently always come up with an excuse or a reason why I can't do them right now. And right now, a big reason that I can't, oftentimes, is my health. Ever since getting long COVID, a little over four years ago receiving that diagnosis, my body has been quite limited in its capacity and what it can do. And I find myself stuck between do I devote all the energy I have to work or do I find a balance that allows me to live and enjoy life? And guess which one I've chosen? I've chosen more of the balance, which is wonderful, and I'm grateful for the ability to do that and still pay all of my bills. Yet what's really happening is I'm using my health as an excuse to not follow through on projects and on meaningful programs that I want to bring into life in my business in questions authority that I know will reach and help so many people. And so my question for you, my question for me is what would it look like? What would it feel like if you no longer had the excuses? If health was no longer an issue, you had all your health, all your vitality, if you had all the time and all the support, if you didn't have this small inner child limiting your drive or your ability to follow through because it's trying to keep you safe from something that uh doesn't even exist as an issue anymore. An example of that would be for me personally is that excuse that I don't have enough energy, that my body can't handle the extra work, or the pattern of not following through for me is rooted in this pattern that I've held since childhood that if I stay small, if I get as close to not existing as possible, then maybe my mom won't hate me. And that's big, right? My mom is still alive, and she by no means hates me. Um but the mother I have now and the mother that I grew up with are not the same people anymore. Which is wonderful for our relationship now. But that small little Lydia, that inner child that is all of these conglomerations of patterns and programs, all conspire together to unknowingly impact my day-to-day behavior and choices. And so this month's energy, and if you follow me on social media or are a member of my online community embodied, or get my weekly energy update emails, you'll know this entire month is about reclaiming your power, returning to your power, calling it back home. And this week, this week, a big step to that, what the energy is really supporting this week towards that, is facing your fears, facing your shadow. And what I have found in the years that I've been doing this is what's really in the shadow, what I'm really afraid of, is my own power. Because my own power, that power that comes from the divine, from my very soul, is unlimited, it is expansive, it is unknown and unpredictable. I can't control it. It's going to flow the way that it knows best to flow. And for that ego, that inner child, that small protective self that lives inside each one of us, that is the most terrifying thing of all. Losing control, letting something else move us, shape us, create our worlds. So again, what would life look like if you actually stepped into your power? What would life look like if you let go of the excuses and you let go of the old stuck patterns that hold you in smallness? When I'm really honest with myself and I look at that, I can feel this kind of tug of war between this beautiful feeling of expansion and freedom. Oh my god, the freedom and the the joy that comes. The peace that comes, the calm that comes from stepping into that, from really letting myself give in to my power. While the other side of me is this absolutely terrified little girl that just wants to hide in a corner all balled up, crying when she thinks about that much freedom. That little control over what she's had control over. It's quite the quite the conundrum, it's quite the dichotomy of situations of perceptions, and to hold that duality within myself is a newer skill for me, and I'm grateful to do that because it's allowed me to step a little bit more into my power and a little bit more, and I find that like so many others that I talk to, that I hear from, I'm standing at this precipice that seems so much bigger, so much higher up, so much more and impactful than any other precipice I felt I've stood at before, where I really have to make the choice. Do I keep holding on to these excuses and doing the same old things, running around in circles, expecting different results? I mean, isn't that the definition of insanity? Or do I start investing in my power and investing in my health in a way that I haven't tried before? Do I let myself step into the unknown and trust that the universe has me, that God has me, that my soul has me, and that they have my very, very best interests held close to their heart. So I'm making choices each day to trust a little more, to look at, to face, to feel my power just a little bit more, to make decisions that start to shift that programming of keeping me small in order to protect me from the wrath and hatred of a woman who no longer exists in that form. And instead shift that to a program that protects me from playing small, from stepping away from my power, from continuing to make excuses about why I can't follow through, why I can't do that scary thing. So the question is, will you join me in that? Will you accept your own soul's invitation to face your fear, to face the shadow where your power has been just waiting for you to step into and reclaim. So I invite you to find a comfortable seat or lay down. I simply ask that you have as straight a spine as possible so you're not dipping your head down or back or side to side, that you're supported and aligned. Allow yourself to sink into your body with each inhale and exhale by simply bringing your awareness to your breath. Maybe even your heart beating in your chest Noticing how your body feels held and supported by the surface you're sitting or lying on. Making in the shift labeling into whatever you need to do to really feel held and comfortable. Drawing your breath all the way down to your belly. Exhaling those lines all the way to those lower lungs. Exhaling slowly and gently. You are walking along a mountain path. You can't see more than a start in front of you. I just don't feel that feels like inside your body. I invite you to come and to trust, knowing that your soul is walking right alongside of you, your soul can see everything laid out in front of you. You just need to take their hand and trust that they will not leave you off the flesh. Let yourself realize the emotions that come up when you hold that idea that visualization and feeling of not being able to see where you're going knowing that any mistakes lead you already at feeling the hand that you're stalled in your guiding you and supporting you. Never leading you straight. So you know. It is still so dark that you know that you are on the edge of this mountain. Your toe is curling over the rock. You can feel the space in front of you. Just in front of you. And even with your eyes wide open. You see nothing in the darkness. Standing at the edge of this voice. Inviting you to trust that they will not lead you into certain doom. They will not lead you into abject failure or humiliation. They will not lead you into danger. But you have to trust. You have to allow yourself to fill your entire body up with this trust. Even as you stare out into the void into the absolute unknown. To trust that they will not let you fall. You are not facing a void with nothing in it. You reach your hand out that is not holding your soul's hand. As you feel into that blackness, that darkness, that void, you feel your power. You feel it beckoning to you. You feel it's calling you forward, calling you to claim it, to stand in its power, to face your fear and realize there is nothing to fear. Starting from that hand reaching out into that apparent nothingness that you know now is anything but that tingling sensation moving down your arm, filling up your chest, moving down the other arm, and simultaneously up your neck into your head and down into your legs, into your feet, bringing the sense of excitement. This feeling of power. Your spine is straighter, your breathing has eased, becoming more full. Even while standing out at the edge of this precipice, contemplating, stepping off the edge, you notice your body somehow while ready and primed for action, feels this deep calm and relaxation. You take a moment to wonder how that part of you that is so terrified has somehow become so small and almost feels so far away as you stand here, toes curled around the rocks, arms stretched forward, fully prepared to step off of the edge, off of the known into this void. Are you ready? Your soul asks. To let go of the charade of control that you've lived your entire life under. It is time to surrender to who you truly are.

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You are powerful, you are truth. You are love, and you are held so completely in love.

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Let yourself take that step. You can grip tight to that soul's hand, and it's okay to still feel afraid. I invite you to fill up with courage. Courage gives you the momentum to step forward, the strength to move forward even when you are scared. After all, if there was no fear, courage and bravery would also not exist.

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So be brave, be courageous, step off the mountain into that void.

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Know that your mind will yell and shout and freak out. But your mind is primed to keep you small, to follow age-old patterns, to keep you trapped, enclosed in the known. And if you no longer want to be controlled, then take that step and the next step, and the next, and realize that you are standing on more solid ground than you ever were on that mountain. That not only is it more solid, it is more powerful, and you have wings stepping into your power, letting go of that mind's control over you has given you wings and more solidity and stability than you ever could have imagined when you stayed in what is known, what was safe, what was comfortable, feel that expansive, uplifting feeling though you are growing bigger, expanding through the universe, starting in the center of your body and moving outwards, let yourself feel it deeply. Overwhelm your mind, let it build until you don't think you can handle any more, and let it go even further. You are starting to see colors that you've never seen before. Feeling sensations you have never felt before.

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Feeling connections that feel like home.

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Holding on to that power, to that truth, to that experience and those sensations, gently blinking your eyes open and closed, stretching into your body, letting your body integrate that experience, that power, letting it begin to embody that truth, this new way of being.com where you'll find everything you need to connect with me.